my alone is holy

even if i am stuck in my feelings

You know how you can cut a tree open, count the rings, and voila you now know the age of the tree. I’ve been thinking about that so much lately but for me. Not the idea of cutting myself open but how do I know how old I am? Okay, yes, even I felt insane writing that sentence. But seriously, I’m trying to count back the years and for weeks, I’ve felt 23.…